One year ago tomorrow we found out we were expecting our first baby. We had been trying since October but I was starting to get worried something was wrong. Why weren't we pregnant yet? The couple of weeks leading up to the final pregnancy test there were numerous signs that something was different. I know they say that most women don't have symptoms until they are a little further along but I had periodic bouts of nausea and felt generally under the weather for two weeks before I tested. The day before I did test Tim and I went to lunch with my parents. We met them at TGI Friday's and I remember not being able to find a single thing on the menu that sounded remotely appetizing. I did settle on a plain hamburger and picked at it and left most of my lunch untouched. My mom called me later that day and asked if everything was ok. I told her how I had been feeling and she of course asked if I had taken a pregnancy test yet. She knew we were trying (in fact I called her crying more than one time) and she told me that she had a funny feeling. I didn't want to get my hopes up and didn't believe that I could possibly be pregnant.
In fact I thought all my symptoms pointed to starting my period at any moment and I had had some spotting. The next morning (February 12th 2011) I decided to take a pregnancy test. My impending period still hadn't started... Of course I being a scientist took the directions on the box to heart and when I got up at 3:30am that day to use the bathroom took the test. I might have waited for a decent time but it did say "first morning urine" and I took that literally! I was sure I was in for the 5 minute wait for it show a negative. But it wasn't the case! Within in seconds a second pink line appeared on the test stick. I rubbed my eyes and looked again. Seriously!! I called for Tim to come to the bathroom. He later told me that he thought I was having technical difficulties with the test and needed his help! HA! I pointed at the stick. He looked at me and smiled. Neither of us could say much at first. We were too shocked at first and tired. We climbed back into bed and talked for a while. Tim managed to fall back asleep. I was awake so I got up and started combing the internet for pregnancy related information.
It was so hard to believe that it had finally happened. We tried for 5 months which seemed like forever to me but really it wasn't that long. I was happy, ecstatic, terrified, nervous, and a million other feelings all at once. Of course I wanted to shout it from the roof tops but I managed to only tell my mom and a friend that first day. That was one year ago. Could I have ever imagined where we are today? No. It's way better, more amazing, a million times harder than I could have ever imagined. Holding my sweet girl and seeing her smile is worth everything. Everything in my life is better (and harder) now.
